This is my blog o dealing with Functional Neurological Disorder aka FND. One thing about FND is that it effects people in so many different ways, personally I’ve been pushing against FND now since 2012 after having my neck broken and being attacked by a gang, it’s left my nervous system in quite a mess, at one point I was bed ridden for nearly 10 months, then my Mum, found this physio company that comes to you, well Hannah took 2 hours getting me out of bed I was almost in fetal position as the muscles in my back and seized so much from the convulsions. I shuffled my way into the lounge, my Mum commented that I had grown 5 inches.
She gave me one piece of advice that has stuck with me since “ Just Keep Moving! “
I sat down and put the TV on after Hannah had gone and the song Walk by the foo Fighters came on and the lyrics
Set me free again
To keep alive a moment at a time
But still inside a whisper to a riot
To sacrifice but knowin' to survive
The first to climb another state of mind
I'm on my knees, I'm prayin' for a sign
Forever, whenever, I never want to die
I never want to die, I never want to die
I'm on my knees, I never want to die
I'm dancin' on my grave, I'm runnin' through the fire
Forever, whenever, I never want to die.
It hit me like bolt from the blue and that song has been my anthem ever since.
Since then Ive just been pushing on doing what I can when I can and if I have something coming up then I make sure I’m ready for it. So far it’s worked out ok so far. It’s funny being registered disabled really hit me, but it’s given me space to think and slow down in some ways, my creative passions have had room to grow.